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I am Addra Forth, the creator of this blog, ANGEL VIGOUR. This blog is about my experience as a woman with mental health struggling to become a mother and how I will not give up hope.

Mental illness occurs when there is a chemical balance in the brain, but not many people are aware that it can be caused by hormone imbalance. I am a female with hormone imbalance and was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, Depression, BPD, and PMDD, Endometriosis. I had no idea that my hormones played a major role in my mental health and fertility.

It took me years to learn that it’s not just my mental health that I need to work on, but my hormones too. Worked on both and now I’m in recovery from my mental health. I was able to balance my hormones but now struggling to become a mother. Fertility rates are low for people with endometriosis which is causing me to become depressed some days. I became obsessed with getting pregnant that it became like a job. I would spend most of the day reading about pregnancy, try different supplements, and tracked my cycle which was difficult since they’re irregular.

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Maintain my mental health helped me cope with not being able to get pregnant.  I used all the skills and tools that was giving to me during my mental health recovery to have a clearer mind. I’m not as obsessed about getting pregnant as much as before. I learned that my body needs healing and it will take time even though I’m over 35 years old.  I figured that my body knows when it’s healthy enough to be pregnant.  

It is hard to have mental illness and try to conceive, but can’t. I know that I am not the only woman here that is fighting this every day. So I’ve created this blog to let you know that you are not alone in this and that there is hope. It starts with you choosing to work on yourself.